Monday, December 11, 2017

NIGHT RAPIDS

scared to show you the cracks
in the cup
where the ridges
have been glued
the semi-gloss glaze
covers them neatly

scared to show you the cracks
in my mind
the places where the
fear stays cool
& damp
the charade
covers them neatly

scared to show you the cracks
in my amour
the places where
the steel
is not flush
slits of sliding metal
over gentle warm
malleable flesh
beneath the surface

scared to show you the cracks
in my attention
where my mind takes
me away
distracted
down through the cold
river of fear
& shame

scared for you to see
this rickety wooden
moss covered canoe
catching a glimpse
of me paddling
focused
into the cold
lost
into the darkness of the night
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Wednesday, July 24, 2013

JUST LIKE I SUFFERED

Just a phone call
& blink, I'm there
Like night
On skin
Walking in
I win
That moment
Black tights, stems
Legs of dreams
Seams, blackened
Boots like our pasts
Passing the others
Dining
Beaming
Shiny teeth
Colored trinkets
Sprinklets
Of romance
Spill accidental
From your mouth
You pout
Sharing your battered
Hands & bruised ribs
Just the way i remember
You my dear
My love
Stay near
Let me just in, a bit
Closer, to smell you
Seep, you, inside
To hide

In the night
About to escape
The city of apples
Never sleeps
Sheep
Sleepishly
I retreat, back
Into questions
I peruse
Searching for
Clues, that just
Maybe
Just
Maybe
You've missed
Me too

Asking why I haven't
Been writing
Nibbling lips
Searching for some
Effervescent reason
Why
Can't really say
Just the sad
Fact that no one
Seems to move
Me, this way
You do
Every time
Your in the room
June

Boom
Twenty one hundred
Tiny red ballons
I can write
The walls
Blow up bathroom stalls
Instigate, navigate, resuscitate
Cathedral halls, with choirs
Chain saws & straws
& a thousand bee stings
No matter
I just want the honey baby
Lean over
I'm hungry baby
I am a pig
I am a dog

I am the wolf
Let me eat you out, deer
Let me teach you about, dear
Let me see through all your teenage years
Tears, simmer them down
Drape, scapula
Tibula
Fibula
Ovary
Jovially
I'd destroy
All that you touch
Indeed
I hope you suffer

With out me
There
You'll find
Happiness
I'm sure
Its the cure from
The pain
You must sink
Into darkness
Just beyond the rain
Letting it into your boots
Soaking socks
On lookers flock
To find those places
Of strength
And knowledge
So jump those cliffs
Ride those rails
And let them hurt you
In all the ways you fear

Because I promise you
My dear
Just the ways
I was raised
True art is born
From braised
Heat, boiled over
Scars
Reaching, pulling
Jumping in
And out of moving cars
Crossing borders
& promises
Losing everything
You ever left the house
With and more
Only then will
You find the door
That opens on it's own
Happiness, solitude
& your home

It's in that place
That I beg your fingers
Beep beep & trace
The phone open
Dial my numbers
To find me mumbling
In some Trader Joe's
Line
Waiting for time
Itself, to reveal
To revel
The bevel, of time, slimes
Past the twelves
Chasing the nines
One day again
You'll be mine
Little ear
All bad things pass
In time you hear
Now put your
Hair up in a pony tail
One last time
Before you leave
So I can stare at
Those cheek bones
& heave
Deep inside
Yearn
For
You
Truly
Are
The
Kryptonite

That kills
My dear
I hope you suffer
Just like
I've suffered
And on the other side
Of the hands of time
I'll see you there

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Saturday, May 11, 2013

THE ARC OF REJECTION


Glaring
Sparkling
Magnetic
Allure
Grumpy
Upset
& hungry
I take you
Every way
I take you
Every day
The electric
Shock
The toxic
Waves
I feel
Every time
You turn away

Electric fence
Please
Keep me away
Something about
Being an addict
Don’t touch the stove
Its hot
Spending a life line
On burns
A life time
Churn
Of starving
Ferns
Stretching to the light
Photosynthesis
Doesn’t work
In the dark
Our love
Is a shark
& I wait
For you to bite

Humanize the day
Consume me
While I pay
Infuse me
With sacred
Spirits
I pray

Twenty years
In the dark
Rolling
Smoldered
Now I yearn
For light
The world turns
On my shoulders
Telling you tonight
How much I miss
Romance

Dancing
Passion
Holding something
Close to the chest
Some heart
Stricken goals
The way to the heart
Through my coals
My eyes
My head
Trace me
Feed me
Do something
That no one else
Can do
Something
That no one else
But you

The pipe
The pain
My fantasy
You may never change
The way back

I once stumbled upon
That place in your
Arms
Your legs
Waiving like
The freedom
Of the flag
That used to waive
So freely

In the car with my father
The final days
Of his life
Knowing that memory
Would last forever
Wish I had another
Man to call
& ask
To see
To have another
Adult
To tell me

Walk away
Run free
Burning hands
Sticking
Electric wire
Fascinated
The spark
The arc
Of rejection
Must be some kind
Of sick joke
My heart
A broken spoke
All the lovers
I hurt in the past
Riding away
On rusted bicycles

Wishing I could
Just bury my self
In your ass
Sleep in the dark
Till Sunday
Your thighs
Eyes
In the elevator
The rain
I would take any angry
Day away
My dame

But you just
See the shame
You just electrify
& I want
To touch
& smell  
This burning hair

For you are
The stove
I am the hand
And I just can’t stop
Burning this way

I can’t find
The way back
That place
I stumbled upon

Closed arms
Coveted thighs
Just a memory
Your eyes
Now just the fence

Blue
Electric
Flashes
Stuck in my head
Again
With my lies
As my hand traces
Over the map
Dulled thumbs
Nibbled nails
Gentle & frail
How did I get
So much older
To find myself alone

I should have left
Bread-crumbs
Or some secret cloak
To sneak me through
Your guarded alarms

Map faded
Dusty black
Because
I just can’t seem to find
The way back
Into your arms

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Friday, April 19, 2013

THE HITCH OR THE HONDA


Sitting
Theater
Minds
Condominium
Learning
Oblivion
Passing
Bars
Watching
Movies
Speeding
Cars
Somehow
You
On my mind
Invisible
Hat
Wondering
Cat
Where
Your long
Hair waves
Lonely
Freckle
Miniature
Ears
Giant
Mouth
Tiny
Tears

Listening
At home
Watching
Movies
Whirled
By the twenties
Curled
On your
Tiny screen
Watching them die
Wishing
For a butterfly
To spin
Me
& sleep

My cocoon
Of red
Tucked
Away
Watching
Sheep
Wanting
The noose
Walking the deck
At night
Your voice
Wrapping
My neck

Lost
At the counter
Yesterday
When I had
To buy a new tie
Knowing
That mine
Probably
Won’t make it
Back home

It’s where
I want to be
Somewhere
Tucked away
Your swoon
Waiting
For
Our
Time
Spring
Hissing
Traffic
Through
The blinds
We bloom
In my mind
Seeing

Feeling
I was
There
In that grace
Barren
Dry
Knee high
In your space
Next to you
In that place
Where my
Black tie
Gently
Rest
Still 

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Tuesday, April 2, 2013

HYPNOTIZED


Beachside slave
Morning
Seashell ways
Spinning
The snail shell
Of life
Symmetry
Octagons
& vortex
Complexity
Of life
Distilled
When we simmer
Over the stove
Laying back
W our backs
To the past
Black, our faces
Into California fields
This electric fence
Keeps you from me

Baby girl
In my arms
Found washed up
On shocking shores
Blistered lips
Boarded up stores
Bleached sun
Swimsuit eagle
Covered hips
Sniffing
Beagles
Through the woods
We wandered
Over the hills
Far, far away

Choose & circle one
My dear in life
My tear-pretended wife
My sly deer blinded headlights
You will
Lose nothing
All gain-
Twisted panties
Churning pain
Unusual girl
Knee high boots
Dying fast
Stop trying
To last
Don’t hold back

One of us
Must let go
One of us
Just let
The cold snow
Fall, over
Our windshield
For you
The comfort
Of my winter
Staring through
The sheer nylon
Your tights
I remember

You are the knife
In my heart
Demand
Someone
As free as
I live
As to be

As did
When the summer
Of youth
Kissed young
My face
So wet
The older girls
Always took
My hand
Made bets
The days of sand
Taught
To lay
To kiss
Stay longer
And learn

Now the older
Man
I burn
Peppered hair
In the day
Smoldered
Into dawn
Baby, crows feet
Eyes touch
Hands meet
& you’re gone

Racing over
Towns
Delicate lace
Gowns
& pretty high
Heels keep you
High
Off the ground
Somewhere
I still reach
Somewhere
I still stay

Laying around
All day
Dreaming
Of a woman
Eye lined
Scouring
Dirt roads
Kicking heaves
To the side
Stuck in the
Gutter of love

Curled hair
Eyes heavy
Arms like doves
Smoke stacked lips
Hungry
As slaves on ships
& grey, lonely, scavenging
Crazed
Wolves
Waving
A fire hand
Wild
As the man
I once saw in the mirror
Years ago

Driving away
Just ride-
Into fire
Out from rain
I lick your
Transparent pain
Around the sun
As we walk down
These isles
Pretending
That this means nothing

Did you pray?
Cause I did
Every time you stayed

Why so scared
Move forward
The past is just that
Past / participle
Sedimentary
Rock / hard / sickled
Rust & bone
I’ll take flesh over stone
Every day

So, I ask again
Do you pray?

Cause I do
Every time you stay
The fox and the hound
Dear box: I’m bound
I see you through
Even where you don’t
I understand
You’re whole


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