8263 Miles

Morning after your birthday

Morning wakes quiet

Charlie all white

My heart still red

Bled & tired

Ready to be fed

By the distant land

Of my father

The grandfather of time

Steps closer

How I wish to call

The times we shared

Still playing the background

On the Tele & the radio

The way your voice flowed

From room to room

Honey & bear

Claws me

Pause me

Stop letting me

Drift further

& further

Away

From the boat

Started a moat

Now oceans away

I will be soon

Away from you

Miles away

On the planet

Miles away

From your heart

Somewhere

Something

Deep inside of me

Will get me through this

Bliss

Hiss

& steam

Siting in the middle

Seat on the plane

The way to Asia

I’m sorry I couldn’t give

You the life you thought

You wanted

Or maybe I did

& couldn’t take it all

Once you see too much

Life changes us

Behind the curtain

The miles away

The music slows

My heart fades

Our memory plays

On the television monitors

Of the plane

Now our passports

Separated by

States & continents

The tracks

Of our fate

Moving down stage

Over countries

Plum trees

Chants

& sage

I see your face

Somewhere down

The isle

In the seats

In front of me

Through the pleats of life

I feel you growing

Stronger w out me

Sitting here at home

Already going

Leaving in just

Short moment

The stewardess

Isn’t quite here yet

& I guess

I just

haven’t pushed off yet

WALKING COLD

Got your message

In a bottle

Tonight

Upon my shores

You washed up

Too bad I can’t

Drink away this pain

In a bottle

Or wash

Away the stains

Of the model

We have left

On the walls of

Our hearts

Tonight

Once again

Together we bleed

Oh feed the words

That sting

My outlet

You surge

Telling me of all the

Things I did wrong

& didn’t do this

& didn’t do that

You would think

I was hired to rebuild

A company or something

Expectation as high

As the empire state building

I thought our love

Was the entire state

Building of

A beautiful life

Travel, prayer

Sex, the knife

& the peach

Slicing, eating

Away at the beach

Enjoying our Sundays

Through Tuesday

From February to June

We tasted love

& we boomed

& we bloomed

But were cut too short

Maybe my selfish ways

Too short of time apart

I think it was emotionally

Distant what you called it

Guilty as charged

For everyday I learn

To be more humble

Over spilt words

& hurt feelings

I stumble

Vulnerable & it’s scary

To let little kids in

& play in a house

Made of china

Why you wanna

Whine ya, never very good

At it, just love me

Like you used to

I am grateful for you

Why don’t you just

Stop degrading me

Oh honey please

Stop the anger

& re orchestrating the past

Like chairs in the living room

The shadows cast

It can’t be moved

Just viewed from different

Angles & I choose

The one of peace

& of pleasantries

Love, oceans

& the trees

We swayed & swung

Nineteen ninety one

My love

My pretend wife

The softest love

Of my life

I remember the taste

Of your mouth

Of your ears

Taught so much

My sweet hunted deer

Now run & play

Before you

Start to really

Piss me off

BROAD DAYLIGHT

Holding the light up

For as long as I could

Walking cloaked

For too long

How could we not

Stop to rest

With each other

Sheltered

From the pain

Up in the hills

We hiked that day

Heading to the sun

Into life

Exploring

Arms open

Roaring

Waterfalls

Jumping

Through the trees

Adventure man

We ran up into

Upland

To higher ground

We found our love

That day in June

IN SOIL & SOOT

Still can’t believe

Thought so many nights

Stayed up late

Cracked ribs

Cracked stories

God I was so ready

To go all in

Walking the dog

Around the block at night

Alone

Stuck again in my head

This hot bed

Too lonely to get in

Just roll around top covers

With the fan on high

Every time I try

To lay down with

Another

You tear apart

Tear up & heart

Ache & burns

Pain charges

Stalls of walls

With marker you stain

My insides

How could you just

Up & walk away

Leave me here to stay

Back in the garden

With the dirt

& the trees

The bees sting me

All over haunting

Me back

To darkness

The cage that has long

Since rusted

Once again

Facing the moon

I climb too

& cling

The sharp rusted swing

Swings in the middle

Of the night

Followed by

The shadow

Of my dark brother

Swaying

Frightened

By another

Not ready to leave

This memory bed

I awake

Full of lead

Our love has stained

Drained

Fingers can’t remember

These keys

Just your house key

Dangles with mine

Still, perfectly

In time, but hasn’t been

Used for so long

Are you missing me

Have you moved on

What about the dog

And the mornings

Our love

Our life

Now with no water

I strife

& dig in the dirt

Finding my way back

Into the ground

The place I know

Best

Cover me in soil

& soot

The root of evil

Lay here with me

Deadened & gray

Just to pray

That I don’t stay too long

Buried

Here in the dark

Alone

& cold

Getting old

Again

Walking

Through this garden

Of shame

Always

My garden of blame

Looking for that hole

In the ground

To cover myself

Up

In the warm earth

Of darkness

To seal myself

Into the night