Holding the light up
For as long as I could
Walking cloaked
For too long
How could we not
Stop to rest
With each other
Sheltered
From the pain
Up in the hills
We hiked that day
Heading to the sun
Into life
Exploring
Arms open
Roaring
Waterfalls
Jumping
Through the trees
Adventure man
We ran up into
Upland
To higher ground
We found our love
That day in June
Still can’t believe
Thought so many nights
Stayed up late
Cracked ribs
Cracked stories
God I was so ready
To go all in
Walking the dog
Around the block at night
Alone
Stuck again in my head
This hot bed
Too lonely to get in
Just roll around top covers
With the fan on high
Every time I try
To lay down with
Another
You tear apart
Tear up & heart
Ache & burns
Pain charges
Stalls of walls
With marker you stain
My insides
How could you just
Up & walk away
Leave me here to stay
Back in the garden
With the dirt
& the trees
The bees sting me
All over haunting
Me back
To darkness
The cage that has long
Since rusted
Once again
Facing the moon
I climb too
& cling
The sharp rusted swing
Swings in the middle
Of the night
Followed by
The shadow
Of my dark brother
Swaying
Frightened
By another
Not ready to leave
This memory bed
I awake
Full of lead
Our love has stained
Drained
Fingers can’t remember
These keys
Just your house key
Dangles with mine
Still, perfectly
In time, but hasn’t been
Used for so long
Are you missing me
Have you moved on
What about the dog
And the mornings
Our love
Our life
Now with no water
I strife
& dig in the dirt
Finding my way back
Into the ground
The place I know
Best
Cover me in soil
& soot
The root of evil
Lay here with me
Deadened & gray
Just to pray
That I don’t stay too long
Buried
Here in the dark
Alone
& cold
Getting old
Again
Walking
Through this garden
Of shame
Always
My garden of blame
Looking for that hole
In the ground
To cover myself
Up
In the warm earth
Of darkness
To seal myself
Into the night
