THE WAY THE SHOVEL FALLS

And so I feed again

The way it comes

Sometimes I don’t even ask

Are they tests

Or gifts?

She brings them to me

For reasons I can’t grasp

The way the shovel

Falls to my hands

 

Laying here naked

I pant away

Smoking my pipe this old way

Still using after all these years

Trading powder for thighs

The lighter is your eyes

The black satin sheets

An ocean of escape

 

Laying here

Drifting

Floating away

Even if it is just for a few moments

 

Doesn’t matter what your name is

You have no name

You’re just another plot

You’re just another pot

Hole in the road

Traveling towards tomorrow

Lost in space

And lost in time

Guess I just had too much on my mind

Today

 

Another reason to escape

Another tragic date

These bodies just pile

Another reason to hate

The way they all come and go

Feeling myself yearning

Feel the whole world burning

To make some kind of personal change

 

Some kind of worldwide pain

This bedroom has seen too many

Hands touched by thousands

A heart only touched by few

Guess I’m still just tucking away

These distant memories of you

RESEAL EVERTHING

This city’s killing us

Can’t you see it

Smothering laugh lines

Between you and me

Can’t you see

The river rising so high

Creaking at the wooden beams

In the dead of the night

The house sleeps

As our dreams, they wander

 

Last week you were cocked and loaded

This week I don’t get a response

The finicky way of Venus

Never understanding your ways

Just the way your hips gyrate

Through the room

I stay mesmerized

 

Kill the lights tonight

Keep us separated by street signs

And flashing lights

All through the night

Between us

So many miles leaped up

Can’t you see

This city‘s killing us

 

Haunting my sleep with the voice

Someone I can’t seem to see

Thoughts of just living this life

With me

I got your politely written letter

Probably sponsor approved

Dotted I’s and perfectly crossed T’s

Letting you rest with your exit

From me

Letting your self close the door

From your side of the room

 

Something I have never been to good at

Learning from you even in the end I do

I guess this relationship is through

 

Finding a roach on the counter

I scour as I walk in the dark

Spraying and wiping away

Reminding me to leave a note

For the maintenance man

To come and reseal everything

 

Life’s metaphor for boundaries

Resealing all the gaps

Between sex and friends

Between sex with friends

Between ex’s and men

Finding myself learning to say no

And feeling okay with it

 

Lets just move forward

Last night in prayer

On my hands and knees

Back row of the sweat

Drenching at the heat

Feeling the drums beat

The Indian song depletes

Wash the summer

Praying our life complete

Letting go

And letting god

Take us away

 

As long as I share this with the world

I seem to keep on okay

Letting all beneath these scars

Keeping me clean

Away from those jail bars

I travel the same way I headed

Into the night

Floating

Flying

Aiming with all my might

Traveling through

Feeling the Fall

On the tips

My fingers

 

They reach for you

Oh winter take this pain away

Just like last year

Wash it all away with your winds

Rinse me down the street

For this city

It’s killing us