TO FIND GOD

The rain is here again

It seems natural to want change

Maybe paint the house again

Some vintage thrift store

Shopping whopping

Monuments, framed in my mind

Or on the wall

Which does it matter

I stare at them both all day

Let us play with the present

Moment that seems to warp

Myself, into this ball of energy

Like cool refreshing clouds of

Rain, maybe a drive to the ocean

Is intact today, just to watch

The waves break away

As I know a strong year

Of triumph is here again

And there’s a mountain

I am about to conquer

And I guess I am preparing

For what or who lay

Rested and bountiful

On the other side

For that one single moment

As all pain and fear subsides

And I know the path has

Once again lead me to

A suspended moment

Of peaceful bliss

And just the mist

Of the ocean

Is all one needs

Sometimes

To find God

WE MAKE UP AGAIN

Spider man lovemaking

I wonder woman all day

Twisted pain subsides

With comic relief regain

Darkened clouds to rain

It’s just a marvel this love

We find ourselves sheltered

Like roulette I stay spinning

Changing shapes and clothes

Barely keeping up with a week

Seems only every once in a while

Cardboard back

We match

So we light, we flare

The curtains stare

As we romp, hitting walls

Lotion weeping

It’s just your eyes in this moment

That I beg will stay open

Your legs ajar

Our lips, our scars

In moments were closer than

We’ve been in weeks

So just hold on, slow down

Again from the top now

Show me the ways of love

Eyes open arms ahead

We make up again

To recreate another day

Feeding me woman this way

Like jet fuel in mid air

Amazing how replenishing

You smear all over me

Like a new man I stand

Like all of a sudden were normal

And healthy

And the afternoon

Follows the morning

And this makes sense

And so do your lips

Biting and pulling

Chewing this food down

Out the window the sky

Grows grey

And just maybe

Just maybe rain is on the way

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GIVING YOU AWAY

So long since something

So fragile, so graceful

Has even caught my eye

For so long little bird

My feelings for you, every night

True, everyone feels the glow

My high-school crush

Pinching my sides

Tree moss as soft

Gliding in snow

Every night I ran, in my head

Never were mine

Not even once

Just a few gentle nights

Awoken by your side

Our story goes backwards

Like lie, then the body, then time

Never stopped me

From playing pretend

Never stopped me

From bending these lines

So pretend wife

Let’s step into this pretend life

Think about all the seasons

Why this should work

Then the reasons why nothing

Ever seems to happen

The mind plays tricks

On me and you

Well you just order another drink

Stuck to a barstool

Stuck there to think

Fingering, tapping your phone

While I’m focused building a throne

And again every night

We both go home alone

I’ve carried this flame

Brighter and brighter it burned

Tried to stifle it out before

A few times swore that Was

Was the door

The way out and away

But inside can’t help but ponder

Is it the one that looks good on paper

Or the one that just feels so good to hold

You see you are the latter

Your neck is my lather

You know it so well playing with your hair

I can see it in your eyes

So I leave town for a few days

My career and my bags I carry

I come home your married

Shocked and sprayed

Lost and dismayed

I thought we were playing pretend

Like a lover I never loved

Lambs lead to slaughter

I’m more like father to daughter

Giving advice not needed

It was in my head, I concede

So pretend daughter, I bleed

Give me the pleasure please

Of just holding your hand

One last time

Let me walk in line with the organ

So everyone in the pews can see

That I am the man

And you are the daughter

And in loving you

I’m going astray

One last time

In your arms today

You see, playing pretend again

And this time I’m giving you away