I WAS INVISIBLE

Higher frequency all day

Higher frequently

There is no other way

To lift myself out of bed

Just to hit my knees

I plead with thanksgiving

And gratitude

This plentitude of opportunities

Overwhelms me when I think

Of everything at once

So it is in prayer

That I just see you

Getting ready mentally

To let you into this home

The cobwebs have overgrown

And now I must make the changes

My father once told me of

The way a woman checks the nest

Leaves her scent

Where she stops to rest

For the night

Oh my tap water

I worry

Through December there is no hurry

For this is my time of the year

I attract what I need

And only that may stay

Circling like a cyclone

My whole world

I built alone

With you god

Revving like an engine

Strong centered and focused

Still alone jumping like

A thousand locusts

I devour the future

Loving the suture’s of life

And my scars, so many lessons

Everything I once loved

Has brought me forward

Making the pages I am today

Freeing the man I appear

Before your eyes

Like a prayer I was invisible

Then the rains came

And you fell from the sky

Through my fingers

And through my eyes

Pushing forward this inertia

Of faith and love

No need to beg, borrow

Or steal

For this life is my meal

And I eat so well

My sister told me yesterday

That I have saved enough

Young girls

It’s time for teacher-teacher

So preacher-preacher

Send me a teacher

Someone I can spill this goblet

Of energy with

Someone to slip in

This abundance

A strong god centered woman

I can take my perfect circle

And make a perfect circle

For I am whole, perfect and complete

On my own

But boy we sure do

Smash together well

Like well done mash potato’s

I want to gum drop

Your little hand in mine

Speed off, get lost in time

Lets take a long flight

Take a long swim

Lets jump some continents

The whole world to play

Sit together on the mountain

And just pray

My ego wants to talk

But with love I say shush

For no reason to push

For I am not in control

I surrender my self with

With adaptability

And flexibility to reveal

As the snow falls in Idaho

Just know that it falls in

My mind as well

And only time

She can always tell

This plentitude of opportunities

Overwhelms me when I think

Of everything at once

So it is in prayer

That I just see you