“I see it with my eyes closed” I grumbled out of context
She said, “What?”
Fuck, I thought I was thinking
I said I see it with my eyes closed
Making waves in the ocean
With my new lover my minds froze
Watching galaxies fade away from the bed
The colors, they turn from orange to red
Splashing in this current I stay focused
On this new stranger I land like locusts
In these fields
Devouring this flesh
Through you I travel like mesh
Eating away at your skin this condom feels so thin
Just enough separation to feel the strange in this stranger
Now once again becoming
My new lover
We twist and turn like a tetherball on a rope
You return smashing like leather I hope
We learn these new moves
Together we orchestrate
The vibrancy of a new love date
I sweat, eyes stay closed
Opening a new road to home
The colors build up in my pockets
Releasing this light into deep sockets
Show me how deep this love can be
Tread with me on this wave
Digging into you deep like a cave
You paid me in full I am your sexual slave
Save me from this nightmare
From the corners of my eyes I stare
Peeking out the windows of my soul, eating this meal I deal
Slowly letting you win, I turn to sin as I climax
My heart aches
While the oceans furl
My toes curl and these anchors
Just swirl
I collapse like lungs unto this platform of doves gently
Holding me afloat sore like a throat you come back to me
Through dead eyes the room falls, the camera hits the floor
We both lay crooked
Watercolors dry and crack
I lay back
As grey matter turns to black
Dead pan floored I stare
Blank like the desert
Imagining you next to me it hurts
Why are you doing this to me?
Ruining my new girl with this old world
You were supposed to leave me alone tonight
Now she can feel these scars through
These gentle bars of tragedy, I sting
Like a magnet you pull me, like disease you kill me
Haunting my orgasms you thrill me
Like a haunted house
You just jump out
From behind couches and screams
You yell
Just lying there in my arms like a cadaver
I mourn you again
New friend naked and panting telling me I am so amazing
While I’m already in my head watching you fall back to sleep
The arches in your back
Your pretty freckled face
Spills all over this place
I’m tucking you back in
I’m plucking this black tin
Harp into songs of separation
Singing this melody alone across town
Bed sheets soaked
Hearts full and choked
Knots in my back
I relax
Into this morphine drip allowing the darkness
To succumb me away
I love dying this way
A few minutes pass
I stand and walk away
As if an act of defiance and allegiance to you
I am going crazy it’s true
My mind is broken it’s blue
And it rains in the sun
This pain feels fun
And time means nothing - to me anymore
This pain means nothing - to me anymore
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